INTIMIDATION!!!!

Finally I'm back blogging again. My computer caught a nasty virus so it placed me outta commission for a little bit but I'm not even gonna trip off that. It's a lot of things going on in my life right now, so I'm just gonna try to go day-by-day w/ my accounts because if I did it all at once it would be too long to blog. But y'all should really listen to the song I put on this blog because that's how I've been feeling and I feel like now is the time for me to make major moves in my life...

But today it's all about this thing that has been plaguing the mess out of me...INTIMIDATION!!! Am I intimidated by some unnamed man/woman? Hell no, but there may be some out there that may be intimidated of me. I really don't care about the men it's more so the women that got me all messed up in the head...

I just got back from Tulsa yesterday from this regional alpha convention I had (A Phiiii!!!). It was a great trip, met a lot of bruhs and made many connections. The trip really re-motivated me and made me proud to be an alpha man and, of course, better my own chapter so that we can be recognized as productive alpha men. Anyways, this is really besides the point...I'm really trying to get at the fact that I was in Tulsa and of course that means I got to kick it with my bgf (Best Girl Friend) who I've been knowing for some years now. I had a great time seeing her and everything but when I had my post trip conversation with her I found out something which just messed me up...

Me and her talked about one her friends and what her friend said about me. Well apparently I came off as very intimidating to this woman. Not in a threatening way but in a manner that made her not even want to ask me for her number. Funny!!! hahaha!!! Okay, not so much, but honestly that isn't the first time that I've heard that I have intimidated a woman before. I just have a hard time understanding how a man can intimidate a woman?!

Perhaps it's because I'm so use to meeting women who talk about how they want a man that can do this and has that but whenever they finally meet that man all of a sudden it seems like they aren't apt to handle him in the same way that they have handled men in the past. I honestly don't think it's self-esteem issues or anything like that. It's something else, I just can't place my finger on it...

I'm curious to see what various women, some that may know me and some that may not have to say about this and if they have ever been intimidated by some men before. There are so many different types of men out there that come off as intimidating and apparently I'm on of 'em. It sucks too because I love to socialize and talk to people (especially women) but it always seems as if there is some sort of wall between me and some women and honestly feel like intimidation plays a role in it.

Back to what I was saying about women not being apt to handle these type of men though...I don't necessarily mean women can't handle a good man or whatever, not by the least bit. But what I'm saying is how can you knock a woman for being intimidated by a man they are not use to dealing with on a regular basis? I can't be mad at women for feeling this way and this is based on the fact that these women get approached by men that's all about running game and what not that when someone real comes along it's almost a shock to the system. I think that says a lot about our society when a woman does not know how to deal with a man being genuine...but that's for another day...

P.S. - Shout out to all the alphas I met at the convention this weekend!!! More to come though...